Effects of Low self-esteem.
It blinds you to the truth about you.
No matter how much encouragement and compliment you get from people…
You just feel they are all flattering you.
They don’t want to hurt you so they make up those words.
You don’t seem to believe you can do it.
You don’t believe you are good enough.
The result being that you can’t really ‘bless’ people with what you have.
You just can’t.
I mean…how do you help someone else when you don’t think you’ve got what it takes to.
Then, there’s this part…
Where you sabotage your own self…
You are in a place where you need to step up to the plate but you convince yourself of the imminent failure.
You are with a guy you like and all that comes out of your mouth are things you don’t like about you.
Maybe what you are saying is kinda right but low self-esteem makes you create a mountain out of a molehill.
And seriously…some of us don’t care about all those things you call flaws.
We are not even seeing it.
Maybe it’s cos we are focused on the amazing qualities you’ve got.
You keep nitpicking over tiny details.
You keep searching for faults and you are always successful.
I’ve read that we should look ourselves in the mirror and say,
“I am beautiful”
“I am lovely”.
“I am awesome” and just keep saying it.
Now, that’s not bad in itself but i wish you actually agree with it.
I wish your mind really believes what is coming out of your mouth.
I wish you understand and see for yourself what makes what you’re saying true.
Why and how it’s so.
In that way you can revel in your ‘amazingness’ so much that the euphoria makes you confess same.
Nothing did it for me like knowing, actually knowing i’m LOVED AND ACCEPTED BY GOD.
That He’d speak to me on several issues about me.
That He’d commit something serious into my hands.
That He works in me. Given me His spirit. Transforms me by His word.
That He actually believes in me! Me?
What is low self-esteem again?
I still get nervous, scared and less confident sometimes…
But to sink into that pit where i’m overcome by the lies my mind tells me?
He is my confidence.
And this Confidence has come to stay.
Love who you are.
Your a champion
Your the best.